Why I do fahion videos
In 2019, I started bleeding. I went to gynecologist after gynecologist. They're like, "We can't find anything, it's probably just hormones." I finally got a doctor to diagnose me with PCOS, which was helpful, but that doesn't stop a period from ruining my life. Really severe anemia. I couldn't do anything but work and sleep. That was about it. COVID didn't help.
I finally came across a doctor. She's like, "I can give you a... do you want to do that?" I was like, "Let's do that, nobody's done that." She was hesitant. She said, "It's gonna hurt, whatever." I said, "I don't give a shit, just do it." She did it. Hurt. It was terrible.
She calls me back, like, a day later — "You have pre-cancer. I'm referring you to an oncologist" — and it happened almost right away. They were treating it like an emergency. The oncologist set me up for surgery, for a hysterectomy, within two weeks.
He said that if I didn't get a hysterectomy, the chances of me getting cancer were 95%. So it was a no-brainer, and plus, I wanted to get rid of my dysfunctional uterus. I got rid of my uterus years ago, in the spring — May 22nd — and my life just improved. I didn't have to deal with pain anymore. I wasn't bleeding. My anxiety went away eventually. I was so energetic. It was amazing.
I started losing weight, it was just — I feel so much better. What led me to starting my fashion videos? Because it was something I wanted to do. Fashion has been my entire life, and a profession for almost 30 years now. I've written for fashion blogs and done some fashion interviews — a designer from Project Runway, and various others. I've always been interested in it, so I decided to just go for it.
I'm incredibly embarrassed to be on camera most of the time. I got used to it eventually.
Moral of the story: if you are having symptoms, and it's "just hormones" or "just being hysterical" — know that it's traumatizing, and it's scary, and it costs so much. But don't give up, because your life can dramatically improve once you find somebody who actually listens, and make them listen. I had my problem — I didn't make people listen, I was just like, went on to the next doctor. Changed doctors until I made someone listen to me. And she was a woman, so that helped. Going to male doctors was... hahaha.
Second moral of the story is: whatever it is you really wanna do, and it's embarrassing or makes you cringe — just do it. And get used to it. And you'll really enjoy doing what I'm doing now.
So, if you're going through the same thing, let me know — I'd love to hear your story. And love you, bye.
